caring and faking

sometimes its not feeling so good to being care.. i love the feeling of alone at certain time... it can happen randomly but recently it have become oftenly... i dun like voice ..shouting.. even touching..i prefer being a statue..doing what i like ..like the world only have me..

being care does not mean that they wan to care u always..sometimes it just ppl wan to take u as a subject to pass time, to cure boringness or just being guilty... i dun mind the reason is..and i dun angry of it..but i think caring is not onli express through talking to u often but through reality action to prove that u really are

example.. a friend calls u to see how are u day and night..i dun love it..i prefer u do something , calling me out for dinner and stuff like that..

a little bit of my hint will scare ppl offf..i hint them..and onli they realize "i made him angry , i have to do something" ...i totally not alright with it..if u care then please do it the moment u know i will be angry...dun do something u know what will happen ...dont do something that hurt someone if u know it will hurt them.. caring later..and apologies later will make me look down on u more...

so people..wake up... u are not moving on the right path

(yeap...another silly and not understandable post)

Conversation = No Conversation

have a conversation with dad bout my com

Me : i think something wrong with my com..
Dad: its because of u playing too much till it get virus
Me : Its not a virus..it shut down automatic..i think is hardware prob
Dad: No..it must be virus..the technician says so
Me : the technician sux ok..worst repair skill ever and u think he is god..
i did play ur com like how i play mine ..nothing happen to urs too
Dad:nope..i got lot virus in my com too...after u playing it
Me : thats not virus..it just spyware!!not my fault
Dad: If its not a virus then why it auto off itself??
Me : i feel annoy talking to u..u keep saying its virus..how am i going to talk to u

*leave and walk up stair*

ppl in this society is really something...they see stuff in one colour..no matter what u do to them..it still think that they are right...

conversation really sux..even in family..lets dont imagine society...

Place Of Peace

so long of not blogging feel a bit sad also..cant read back what had happen last few months.. recently have been like staying in my own world ..doing my own thing..thinking stuff onli for me..beside playing online game..i am still in online game..have start to quit smoking now.. for those ppl that shock..yeap..i am smoking for the past 2 year.. and now i think is time to say tak nak..costly and bad for health..yeah yeah..i heard it more than million in just 2 years..so i give it a try... never want to be a smoke slave anymore...but its hard..when u have frens that is always asking "want?" and my answer is always SURE!! .. -_-..hehe..a promise is promise..but it just take long..

i realize that i have a commom life style everyday..wake up in the afternnon ..class..home..dinner and game..lastly sleep...due to afternoon class timetable i been facing the com till 4 in the morning everyday..since i do not need to wake up early for class

eventhought is bad for health..but i found it not bad..i sleep all i wan..i do not need to face parents after i wake up(because i will bath and go for class after i wake) and inside my room for the rest of the night..beside dinner time.. i find peace..and understand a meaning of my zen place..(not u zc) the total silence make me feel dominating..and man love dominating..i love this sem seriously...i hope it wont last till this december..i hopes its forever..but due to it..i become a loner which dun feel lonely(will if my com spoil in sudden)...

anyway..got to watch tv dee..today will sleep at most early 4 ..heheh..