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sometimes life is really funny..thing dun go very logic even though u think thats how is suppose to be..especially relation between human..it is very complex..when u cherish someone and try very hard to do archieve what they wan..of course u think that he or she will be vey thankful to ya..but it is the other way aorund..they think that we shud do stuff for them which is inlogical..but it do happen in reality even it dont make sense at all

human worth is something very weird ...in example..u do so much thing for your company end up ur boss give ya a white fire letter..same it applied inrelation..after u done so much for them..your single tiny wrong is enough for them to be angry and forget how they make u suffer and what u done for them..

hmm..is that call selfishness??for one happiness ..we tend to ignore other people and never take the chance to know them whether they are happy with ya a not..it is true that in order to archieve perfection..people tend to forget the dearest beside them..maybe thats how the society go..everyone got to applied on it..and everyone is a victim..

sad case...

taylor dane compettion..cant get the performance photo ..
so this is what i can get..

no more

well..this few days been reading my blog..sound so sad..no wonder everyone think i am such a PMS(poor man suffering)..i might be once..but no more dee!!i will write a better blog..ensure my life is great and enjoyable..every single secong in my life will be full of passion and excitement..i promise u bloggy!!!muahahha..chaos is back dude!!

well first lets talk about taylor dance competition..i arrive late because 9th pj is having a campfire and i got to supervise how they going..so i onli be able to see the last candidate that is the :INFERNO:..and also the winner of that competition..it consist of 3 and a half guy..because zhen consider one of them is gay..their stance is cool..the edited song is nice..so envious they can dance and enjoy in the meanwhile i can onli dance like a wood..even after the competition ..when there is a party..i feel so weird myself dancing..but not all my fault ok..just the feel is not there..i prefer going with my sibling to club last time..they are freaking crazy and the feel wont last..the :HiGH: feel ..haha
picture will be updated after zhen send it to me..

the following day ..is the campfire of 9th pj scout group,catholic high..it is a great event ..those junior do very well..proud to be their senior last time..especially the slide show..it so touching and it hit the theme really good..the performance as well..i think calyc is always improving..they just got better and better..they wake the crowd up and it just cool..they deserve to win in cheer 2006..beside those event..i get to meet other senior that long lost already ..like eugene..ming shen ,chun fai and many others..

this weekend is cool..no test and non stop enjoyment..even busy and frustrated..i guess life should be like that..even pressure and stress and disspointment is in the air..and we cant run away from sucking them..but we can also release in the other way just like breathing..oor u prefer farting also can ..even life is always alone at certain period and u found it hard to face..i guess i shud face it in a positive and with a smile..take it a chalange..not a fate..and one more thing...i wont keep anger in anyone..because i wan to be look up and i wont mind what problem they leave for me..as long as i never do bad thing..i will be alright..

no sad post anymore..i will live better and live stronger..

terible

i feel so not me today..feel more like a slave..
damn unhappy..how can they say such word to me..
dun they know what i done for them??..
why they treat me so cruell..
why is it so unfair for me..
why i am the one suffering..
why i am the one that having sleepless night
why i am the one that heartache almost every second
why can i cool down after being hurt..
i feel so uneasy
i feel so unstable
i got no confident
i got no dream anymore
i got no emotion
i feel like dying.
feel like crushing myself

dunno

..now..it is 6 am sharp..i sleep so late but i wake up so freaking early..i dunno why..something been starting to bother the way i live..the way of emotion..the way of bringing me to a healthy me..i turning myself to upside down freak..emotionless..and recntly full with sick..i really hope i got to change..but no one really can change how it flow..maybe that is the challenge of my life..to fulfill all of it..with onli me alone and no one to help out..kinda sad..for such a time no one been really giving me a hand in eveything..and even though i tend to make everything right with my own bare hand..no one tend to notice..i am very suffering at first but now i am used to it already..without support and help..i will still stand strong..i dun care..and i will..

girl fight

well for those who read newspaper and aware of news happening..u might know that there is a fight in dunno which school that involve school girl that is recored on the mobile phone..



i wonder what happen to girls nowadays ..violent and full with naive..they think they are so cool by losing their morale and being a beast..and all i heard in the whole clip is "NI YOU MEI YOU CHIANG!!NI YOU MEI YOU CHING"(do u say anything!!do u say anything)

from what the police report..this victim offended the boy friend of this bunch of beast girl..which i cannot accept that reason is enough to beat this girl up..i thought if anyone offended a girl,the girl will onli call her bf which is a triad boss or what to fight for them..i never ever thought the girll will go down on them own and recorded the whole thing up which i thought is stupid enough ..

i think i shud not talk much ..as kenny said.. they will come find me and "NI YOU MEI YOU BLOG!!!NI YOU MEI YOU BLOG!!" ..end up u will see my video being bully by a bunch of violent girls hehe..

nothing cool

what the hell..i write so damn long post end up dc..

carnival of CHS happen yesterday ..due to their 50th anniversary..there is lot if thing to see...scout selling campfire badges and doing amazing maze..and SLAD selling sushi..good for them anyway..i guess both club earn a lot as i hear..michelle class do haunted house and she selling cake too..i am sorry to her for not buying the cake..but i really cant find any meaning buying.i dun waste money..sorry mich..hhaa..but i have to congratulate her for doing well in the haunted house and earn her club as much as 700 right???

saw friend and talk to teacher that i used to hate..walking around to see anything interesting..visit school new facilities and lots more..but anyhow..thing dun go really well..it do seem nice ..but i feel different because maybe we are not the organizer and we are not part of it ..and i dun interested in this event..end up being exhauted and tired of talking and walking..even talking to friend make me feel tired..but not all..at least some unexpected people tend to help me past time..which i feel much alive in the carnical..i dunno why i become so stick to myself all the time..maybe diossapoinment,experience and background build who i am now..well i still try to make life interesting and better all the time..

anyhow somebody leavbe a scratch on my car./.maybe a noob driver i guess..i feel even worst..have to explain to parents and settle thing up ..and no one understand me..guess thats my luck this year ..anyhow i find something that make me feel better..being onli a memeber in student council really make me relive..polictic do happen and glad i am not committee..so i could avoid politic...i always hate politic when people fake to each other..the best example i guess is DR M and PAK LAH for their stupid action that drop the image of the prime minister..they complete destroy the respect i have for them ...good luck and wish them die ealrier..