dumb

sometimes i really dunno whether she responsible for what she doing a not..this is what happen..after quarrel and quarrel ..she still dun get what i mean..i know she is innocent ..but is she really that so much..a quarrel start by her and problem created by her..i am really hurt of her act and what she done..really lorh..i expect she will say sorry and promise to change...but she dun ..she tell me she hurt too..(hello..u make people angry ..now u telling me that u are angry also??) dun make sense at all..fine..i expected her to do something..and i tell her i am not confident with what we are going anymore..i thought she will say ..i will help u regain your confident..guess did she said that ??nop!! she never..at last i fedup and said i do everything my ownself..wow..one more surprise..she agree with that..ish ..i onli see selfishness in her..she make me angry and she hope i can settle thing myself..well she did ask me that what she can do..but do u think i can answer thing like that..come on ..commom sense also know that ..i cant answer this kinda question in my place right??well i give up calling her to do thing for me in this mater..i take everything myself..and what it mean??the quarrel is useless..after being angry a while..she make like i am the bad guy..the evil wan..and wan me to pujuk her back...really big shocking what she done..i never met somebody like that b4..seriously i think there is no way the confident will regain with her attidude like that..she make me think she not mature at all...childish..

( i am talking about my college fren ...dun mind me)

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sometimes life is really funny..thing dun go very logic even though u think thats how is suppose to be..especially relation between human..it is very complex..when u cherish someone and try very hard to do archieve what they wan..of course u think that he or she will be vey thankful to ya..but it is the other way aorund..they think that we shud do stuff for them which is inlogical..but it do happen in reality even it dont make sense at all

human worth is something very weird ...in example..u do so much thing for your company end up ur boss give ya a white fire letter..same it applied inrelation..after u done so much for them..your single tiny wrong is enough for them to be angry and forget how they make u suffer and what u done for them..

hmm..is that call selfishness??for one happiness ..we tend to ignore other people and never take the chance to know them whether they are happy with ya a not..it is true that in order to archieve perfection..people tend to forget the dearest beside them..maybe thats how the society go..everyone got to applied on it..and everyone is a victim..

sad case...

taylor dane compettion..cant get the performance photo ..
so this is what i can get..

no more

well..this few days been reading my blog..sound so sad..no wonder everyone think i am such a PMS(poor man suffering)..i might be once..but no more dee!!i will write a better blog..ensure my life is great and enjoyable..every single secong in my life will be full of passion and excitement..i promise u bloggy!!!muahahha..chaos is back dude!!

well first lets talk about taylor dance competition..i arrive late because 9th pj is having a campfire and i got to supervise how they going..so i onli be able to see the last candidate that is the :INFERNO:..and also the winner of that competition..it consist of 3 and a half guy..because zhen consider one of them is gay..their stance is cool..the edited song is nice..so envious they can dance and enjoy in the meanwhile i can onli dance like a wood..even after the competition ..when there is a party..i feel so weird myself dancing..but not all my fault ok..just the feel is not there..i prefer going with my sibling to club last time..they are freaking crazy and the feel wont last..the :HiGH: feel ..haha
picture will be updated after zhen send it to me..

the following day ..is the campfire of 9th pj scout group,catholic high..it is a great event ..those junior do very well..proud to be their senior last time..especially the slide show..it so touching and it hit the theme really good..the performance as well..i think calyc is always improving..they just got better and better..they wake the crowd up and it just cool..they deserve to win in cheer 2006..beside those event..i get to meet other senior that long lost already ..like eugene..ming shen ,chun fai and many others..

this weekend is cool..no test and non stop enjoyment..even busy and frustrated..i guess life should be like that..even pressure and stress and disspointment is in the air..and we cant run away from sucking them..but we can also release in the other way just like breathing..oor u prefer farting also can ..even life is always alone at certain period and u found it hard to face..i guess i shud face it in a positive and with a smile..take it a chalange..not a fate..and one more thing...i wont keep anger in anyone..because i wan to be look up and i wont mind what problem they leave for me..as long as i never do bad thing..i will be alright..

no sad post anymore..i will live better and live stronger..

terible

i feel so not me today..feel more like a slave..
damn unhappy..how can they say such word to me..
dun they know what i done for them??..
why they treat me so cruell..
why is it so unfair for me..
why i am the one suffering..
why i am the one that having sleepless night
why i am the one that heartache almost every second
why can i cool down after being hurt..
i feel so uneasy
i feel so unstable
i got no confident
i got no dream anymore
i got no emotion
i feel like dying.
feel like crushing myself