things conitnue..

yeah maybe i am not great..maybe i am not something that is good to become anyone predious..but i am a human too..i got a heart..with emotion..i can share anything ..i can give anything...i can sacrifice anything..but is it like i am the onli that doing stuff like that..am i really not worth to being care of..to being consider of..i dun understand..i am doing nothing wrong..but why thing go wrong on me..why they wanted to rush up those negative feeling on me..to hurt me ..make me look down on myself..feel myself so cheap ..like a rat walking on the street..no one mind dead or alive..why???what is the use of helping..understanding ..and also caring..i got nothing in return..well that is what school teacher teaching us..not to ask back something when u sacrifice to ppl..but all the while i am not asking i just hope ppl sto giving me hard feeling..stop giving those shit that ruin my mood..my emotion..my entire heart is aching..cause those great thing u been giving!!!what this all about!!!! am i really not worth being look up..if i am really not!!! then tell me who the shit is i..all the while i been hoping to receive the best from u..but is this how u treat me ????is this how u return my love ..my care???why??tell me...what the fuck!!!

graduation

a few days ago..the chsian of 2005 finally retired or should i say graduate..it is a very touching event..firstly everyone is taking photo before the ceremony start..u can see the expression of missess toward their dearful fren..i heard some of them even cry..yeah it is something very sad about it..we have living together for 5 years in the same place..it just like we are a bunch of family because we spend most time in school haha..instead home..well but everything gonna reach till the end..everyone think positive bout it..hope for a better life and bright future to all my fellow fren..haha..back to the ceremony..i find it very strage..fren that i used to hate a lot..and teachers too..i feel that actually there isnt a big gap in between us..i just regret why cant i realized it haha..well too bad..i cant stand the feeling of regret..i will find way to contact them if i got a chance..thanks a lot to all of u ..for experience and teaching me this 5 years..my fren and teacher..and also my school...love u all

time flies

time goes really fast..just a blink of eye we are in another place far from past..but problem never gonna fade in an inch..well quite impress because i had face it for a amazing seconds..what the emotion i gonna face the problem wiht??the answer is inmune..no feeling..no comment..no answer and wish for question..curiosity lost..every second from now trying to be a cheerful..be a laughing freak..be a clown to others is what i really wanted to have..for those who concern!dun worry because the big freak guy zhien wei is always the right guy to have fun with..not a single tear will be laid upon anything..as u can see..from the title for this blog..THE DEVIL NEVER CRY..haha..the devil onli laugh and shout..and he apreciatte anyone that is around for him..haha..

big crisis is coming ..SPM is the main goal for everyone in the form 5..the devil over here will curse everyone to got full A in this examination..haha..u got curse!!now u will get good result in all the test u got!!! evil me!!!~~~~

class trip and prom ..a special moment to remember the heaven of school and class ...it also a place for a demon like me to bring chaos to the occasion with rythem..as u can see my nick is also CHAOS RYTHEM..haha along with partner haha(u know who)..

anyway thats all for this warning to all fren about the curse and those chaos..i hope thing is going as plan ..see ya..~~~

piss of it!

well it been very long since i blog..things even going so well..i mean i nvr expected it to be that way..i miscalculated..i used to be someone that calculate ..find solution to any problem i am into..but now..i give all of it through my feeling..i dunno why..i thought it will somehow make things better..this is what pupil tell me "dun calculate so much in some matter!!" but i guess that is me..or i should my life is this..without calculating i will be in deep trouble..i nvr believe in my instict or my feeling before..but now i give it a try..end up i am suffering here..when this thing continue..i am addicted toward it..no way i could stop toward feeling and calculate back..isnt it funny?? i am losing my rights nowadays..never able to do things i should do..and unable to voice out things i not agree with..i am feeling myself giving too much..and forgotten to ask back..i am not feeling really good..being a puppet in someone eye..being a joke to someone mouth..i am really piss of it!! but what can i do..i fallen to a deep underground where i cant reach for the lights..i did say before a phrase that no matter how deep u are in darkness..there is still light around the corner..YEAH i am searching it in every single corner..maybe it is not the right time..maybe it is in somewhere..i only afraid that it never existed..i am tired..unable to continue searching..only determination is not enough..my body and emotional is pulling me down..losing my focus..loosing my ability to do right and wrong..and i worry being broken down..piss of it and piss of it!

it been long

well hello..it been long since the last time i update my blog..well a lot of things happen..happy and also sad..i dunno will it last long or not..but this is not the thing i should worry about..because i really cant do anything bout it..maybe god make the desiciion..oh well..let start with my burfday..i dunno it should be happy thing or not..getting kai bao by many sadist in our school..they even record the process..oh shit~~i havent even see it..hurt my hand~~ouch!!! well it is nothing lahr..i am kinda used to it..because dunno why i have been ppl target to kai bao..when i reach home..my sis bought me a cake!!! so sweet of her..hahah..and the whole family celebrate with me..home sweet home..!!!and after the cake..some member of the family feel hungry and..my dad said."oh well let have supper" hahha..then 2 cars gone to KL and have WESTERN food for supper..hahah..12 am somemore..it is a great day..well been receiving message from eevryone..even munyee from ausie!!!haha so lad she remmeber..

trial is coming ..i am kinda worry bout it..because i nvr even start to read anything bout it..i wonder what will happen in SPM..hope it will been different..geez prom is changing the venue..poor chin fei have to face those schoolmate alone..oh well some are fine..but some of them is just trying to make problem with him..hope he could handle well..and of coz i will give support to the donkey no matter what!!buddy marh..hahaha..ok larh i guess thats all i wan to say..wont be updating my blog for long...maybe after trial i guess~~~