unlucky.//

today is very very very unlucky day..cant evn wake up from my bed because of headache..well it is not a normal headache that last a while..it last till now..wow!!!dun really love to eat panadol..because i really dun like my body full with other chemical stuft..beside having headache..a very big ulser is right at the bottom of my tough..and with combination of headache and ulser...it turn me to some kind of deadfish..haih..cant eat cant walk properly and is incredibly pain whatever i do..been sleeping whole day..also did gone for tuition..cant understand a single word teacher say..and get scold for sleeping while tuition arh!!!..ok larh wanna have dinner liow..hope my headache run away now or faster...

alone in beach... 

lonely imprison.... 

misunderstood..

well sometimes i have to really know the meaning of understand..i know what it is written in the dictionary..i dont get it..i realiuze i dun get understand by people..through such condition..i realize i start to not understand myself..sometimes i will love thing i hate b4..sometimes i hate somethings that i love most..i often the one who got misunderstood..

what i mean is always get turn around by fren family and relative..i dun get it..for my hard work is really for them..for their good..but what do i get?.scolding..getting tease..getting laugh..and the most important got misunderstood..i dun like it..so what could do..explain?.what the point explaining someone that dun understand u..and i thought eventhough i explain it wont get any use..they onli thought i am finding some reason!!well i am start being selfish recently..i dun wanted to do so much liow..to get myself out of the word "misudnerstood"..

thing got fine this holiday..nvr get to face up and down in school..school always bring mood swing to me almost everyday..now in house in my room hearing music ..i really get to be in normal feeling..wow!! it been long i never have this feeling..enjoying being lonely..being boring..being silent..that life!! but i know i wont last long with this feeling..past a few days..i guess i will scream for wild life again hahah...

tuition is almost everyday..but i also hope i can do more..that is study for myself..after watching movie gonna read up lot sa thing..hahha...anyway gtg now liow lahr.,..fren that understand me(very few of them)..i am fine..i just dun understand life..must think think think...hhahaha...good luck everyone..

holiday...finally..

well it is the 29th of may and also the beggining of two weeks holiday..phew..no teacher and no early waking ..no rushing for homeworks..but too bad got lot of tuition..it is not almost everyday but it is everyday!!!hhaa..nvm lar..since i will not ever study myself..guess i have to depend on them to help me out..hehe..good luck for myself during spm trial and gerak gempur!!

i dunno is it a good stuft to let her be like this..i said that i am alright..yeah i do feel alright but not all..such decision currently still fine for me..but i dunno wether it could stand forever..what will i be thinkin when i see her..what will i do..am i gonna change???or am i gonna stay like just like that..i am quite satisfied with who i am and what i am now..i just a little quiet..i guess she still misunderstood a little..i dunno how to explain to her..i guess i just have to prove something..but the problem is how to prove??since she is the one that misunderstood me at the first place..i nvr tell her she is misunderstood me..i dunno why..maybe i dont feel like explaining..i feel like it not going to be any use..just hope she realize what i am ..what i do.. is not what she is thinking..i need not think too much liow..sometimes i expect her to be observing me..y am i always the one who got misunderstood..nvm i am used to it..i got no feeling when in this condition..numb...come on..for heaven sake..why am i so unlucky ...( people around...dun understand nvm ..i am alright!!)

got to for dinner..why i am telling lie to protect others..and why i cant really find someone that know i am caring them and use my ability to protect them..why they always think i am doing bad stuft..why??? i really hope there is someone to tell me..this hope been too long...still i nvr get an answer..i guess..there is no such ppl that is like that..forget is zw..there is no hope for such wish..just good luck for yourself!!!...seee yaaa..