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REVOLVING CIRCLE..SOMETHING THAT I CANNOT BREAK....

actually all this been a while..i do not expect people to know what i am thinking..even it bring lot of difficulties for me..i do not have companion to tell out what deep down in my heart has been store..and of coz increase the pressure and also emotional time where i feel like breaking down..

recently i start to feel that people intend to be selfish..and in another way around i feel being drag down by their selfishness and create more mentally trouble for me..but in order to keep my smile and cheerfulness..all this crap i will just pull it harder to bottom of my heart and lock it up..just the thing is i dunno when is time that my "store room" going to be fully occupied..even if it really burst out one day ..i guess i will be alone that time too..

my life is just a destiny followed ..i got parents that i really afraid of..with a responsible parents and also knowledgable sister and being the youngest member in this family..i got to follow the fate that is given..that make my disaster repeat and repeat withought limitation..it is not that i wan to ignore what they ready for me..it just that what they did is not wrong..but it just not my way..not the fate i want..not the destiny i hope for..

lets talk about fren now..all the while ...i got a major changing of close fren..i really get a little tired out..i mean all i wan is one and onli one to go through my hardship all the while..someone that i can trust..someone that i cannot lose..but still it is still unfortunate for me now..i used to be someone that always cheer ppl up..but deep down i really hope somebody will do that to me as well..make me look like a small kid and also shoulder to cry on..acting like a baby..ppl tend to say i am veru big ego...i guess lack of love make me become what i am now..stand strong for ppl and also myself..but is still something i wan ..i dun wan to be look high..i wan to be normal and pure individual..

if there is a chance i can be reborn i hope to change totally to another person..i mean being rebellion..daring to do something i like and also make my own world ..at this time changing is really too late to do it ...for me at least..i try and try and try..but it wont happen and i know it wil not for future..with my fate and also destiny holding and settle everything for me ...

u know..it really nice to blog at this time since no one starting to take care of my blog..so nobody will be able to read...even if they do ..u might get offended ..dun mean to offended anybody..i might be refering to anyone here..just dun do the perasan..if u really care me as a fren or a family please respect my think,blog and my action..for stranger..this is not a good blog for u serve through..if it happen this link is in ur favourite ..then delete it out..it dun mean that much for the blog to stay ...

no matter what i said..i dun mean to take my life as a low life and sad life..i just have to fix myself to cope with how it is..at least the world still remain an positive mind thinking for me ..to let me got desire to live on..i do not know what will happen in future..it will change or not..but i do get a few percentage of how it might be..but not all..so i dun need advice like life will be better..i am still a positive asshole k(i repeated twice)..

ok larh ..i guess thats all for today..my heart and eye are bigger now..to be able to see thing clearly and i finally got to taste the feeling of darkness that erupt all over me..but i believe there is still light within darkness..it just see i can be able to reach or not..if it do..i will cherish who i am more..but if i dun ...i will wish a good luck for myself..conclusion.....................i just wan to be a better man and average as well......

wow..its been so long since i updated my blog..nvm larh..nobody read it anyway..hmmm..it still january right???so i will talk about this year a bit larh ..hmm..just a few weeks after 2006 ..i can feel the changes that happening..lifestyly and way of thinking..i do not know is good or bad..but i think is so no good!!!

oh my god..another year of like that really cannot stand at all...add on somemore got so many hard subject..i really hope to graduate early..i feel like i am in some kind of jail..un able to accomplish any single thing..and bring trouble to myself ..i feel kinda moody..i feel i am too average too accomplish what i really wan... it is just impossible to me but my desire to accomplish make me feel useless and dissapointed..all i wan is to be simple and reach peaceful..how can the world give me a harsh situation???where do i need to locate myself and where shud i place myself...

i heard ppl saying that everyone in this world is a small missing puzzle..everyone got their function and dedicated their life to search for the right place for them...wow..but all the time i really wonder am i the extra piece ..or am i the piece that i not needed..i find find find and find...i really do..but the place dun exist for me at every single place..hmmmm...i really do not wan to believe i am actually that unfortunate..i am just too average to be challenge...

well well well...here i am again...heard some earth quake happening in taiwan and make the connection down..dun have the mood to check frenster..dun have the mood to chat because i cant receive some message and ppl cant receive mine either..end up the onli site happening is blog..maybe fate wan me to blog hahaha

well christmas is over..i cant say it is total fun ..but well at least i celebrate..and that make me feel better..not all the year i celebrate alone..but mostly do..i used to stay at home and countdown with my family..but recently years ..i got to go out and crazy with some fren..last year is really a mess hahah..i still remember i being corn by them and end up being the soap of the night..

this year ???ummm..went to the curve..eat japanese restaurant call toh san...some nice some good..and hang out with million of ppl being like a hotdog in the middle of two bread most of the time..the feeling???i just feel like going home..i thought of my mom and my dad..what are they doing??and then i got a call from them..it is bad news because i got scolded reall bad since i drove my mother car beloved car due to my clumsy sis that spoil my car..i found out my mom is alone,..watching tv..dad and sis not around..i hope to go home so much ..to be by her side..but well..i cant leave someone alone in the curve..heheh..

for me malaysian countdown for christmas is not happening..actually i think all countdown is boring ..dunno why..i just dun love countdown..i onli feel being squeeze all the moment..and everyone sharing sweat and touching here touching there...hehehe...sound erotic??u think urself haha..

after everything done..gone home and meet mom..she give me a angry look but end up i am able to make a smile on her face...i got relieved..sis and dad is drunk ..so never wish them at all since i am busy leading them to their bed..hahhha

i know this is the boring post..i dun feel like blogging ..i am just boring right now..and also blur..
i watch two movie straight today ..at 2 diff places..hahhaaa..so understand me larh

p/s : i know my post i really lack of picture and all boring word that no climax and no plan order..but well i am not looking good in photo..and i dun write well.. and i dun blog for popularity..i just blog to express something to myself..OMG..what am i talkign..go sleep first tata..!!

end of year!!

wow..it been so long since i last updated my blog..hahah..sorry everyone...as u can see the clock above..i got my final to take care and it is finally done!!!!and now i am here with a two weeks holiday(even it is short..but it is just enough) and also today we is a christmas eve..

everytime when it is christmas i will think back of what i have done for this year and what do i want to archive for the next year..some years it is good and some is just disaster..as for 2006 is quite okok lorh ..some go unplan..some go smooth according to plan..and some just a major surprise..

thats me in 2006...


just a few more days i will tell uncle auntie that i am 19 ...i am in college year 2 and no more high school major exam..sharing my life to some cousin who is out of high school and blah blah blah..conclusion i am getting the old brother feeling or just old...

well got good go bad..at least i experience something..i learn lot for this 2006 compare to previous years..i gain pain that make me feel the end of the world and also hapiness that make me love myself so much that..which make me become a new aaron saying bye to the old zhien wei..

oh my god..this is getting so emotional and so sad..let stop talking about the old year..lets see what we got for 2007..for my friends that still got contact with me..i am doing diploma and i got a year more to go and i am not flying everywhere until 2008..thats not the main point..the main point is 2007 lots of buddy that is doing pre-u is having their new life and situation at outside uni..i am happy for them that they will have a experience gain that could lead them so much..and i feel sad because i will stick to my dull lifestyle because alone in msian and without them..i bet 2007 wont be any surprise..so everyone please miss me..i dun mind even it just a 0.000001 second..i will really appreciatte that hahaha...

ok larh ..i guess i said too much boring stuff..i know the fun part might be me revealing more about myself..but i cant as i am not those that can tell everyone in public bout my private..hehhe...anyhow..meery christmas and happy new year to fellow world..may 2007 be a good year..and wish me luck ok !!!!!

before leaving ..let me sing a song k???

hohhoho....jingle pau !!jingle pau!! jingle cha siu pau!!!lin yong pau ...tau sa pau....siew mai,loh mai kai!!...MERRY CHRISTMAS HOHHOHHO

(i know it is cacated...but just had dim sum just now :P and thanks caselyn for the wonderful lyric!!!)

i need more presentssss!!!!!